That is exactly :
- 120 points better on the Math section
- 70 points better on the Writing Section (3 better on the essay!)
and now watch out...
- 0 points better on the Critical Reading section.
Flashcards, you have failed me.
Seriously, right now, I am having a not-so-mini life crisis. I am refreshing College Confidential every two minutes, to get some hope from a random stranger. I have been depressed and unable to do a single thing for two and half days. I EVEN FRICKING MISSED SCHOOL. And I have Subject Tests on the 7th.
You think I'm exaggerating? You think this is my typical self-deprecating, sarcastic style?
You are mistaken.
Seriously, what the **** should I even do? All people tell me is: you are not good enough, look at less selective schools.
And this is unfair. And when most people say "It's unfair", they mean "It's not what I want". Yet this is unfair. I am not from the US. I'm from some godforsaken central European country, with no SAT preparation available. I have bought all the books. I have done 25 practice tests. I have...but little does it matter. They evaluate every single person equally, regardless of their circumstances, when it comes to the SATs. I can be the best student in my class, I can have the best stats possible, a 2150 is still a 2150. And I wouldn't mind it if it didn't matter so much, but contrary to what they say...it does.
Sigh.
I'll now go and wallow in self-pity and hatred for the world. I shouldn't even mention how each of my sections were above the 93rd percentile.
NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
Sigh.
I am not even being self-deprecating and sarcastic. Nope. Not at all. Not at all. OK, maybe a tiny bit. But I have to be or else I wouldn't be me.
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